I woke up this morning, and for the first time in months I felt joyful. There was a song literally playing in my head -

Shout to the Lord, all the earth
Let us sing. Power and majesty, praise to the king.
Mountains bow down and the seas will roar
At the sound of your name
I sing for joy at the work of your hands
Forever I'll love you, forever I'll stand
Nothing compares to the promise I have in you

-and I did feel like shouting - or a least singing and praising God. Wow. I have really missed this. That doesn't mean all the difficulties are gone - just that I'm beginning to find my way through them.

Edit: And then, I fell. Hard.