Wednesday, January 11, 2006

I am the passenger.....

I am not in control of my life. The good or the bad. I try hard to control it, but that is just an illusion. Someone likened it to a toddler sitting in the back seat of a car with his toy steering wheel. He thinks he is driving....but he really has absolutely no control over the direction the car takes, when it stops, swerves or how fast it goes - none of it. The parent who knows the bigger picture is in control. Yeah, so that's God and me. I keep thinking I'm driving, and then I wonder why my life veers off in a direction I didn't want it to. Why I end up in a place where I didn't choose to go. Or why it comes to a screeching halt when I am speeding along smoothly. I need to just take my hands of the wheel. Quit wrestling with Him and let him drive. He knows the directions. He's got my life all mapped out.
Right now I'm on a detour - not of my own choosing. I have to let him drive - He's the only one that knows the way through this. When I go places with my friend, and she drives I am totally relaxed. I never question her decisions, the route she takes, I never second guess anything she does. And if we get lost, I don't panic. I am a totally relaxed, take-it-as-it-comes passenger. So why is it any different with God?
So, this is my next challenge - to learn to be a passenger, and not just a passenger, but a good one. I don't know where I'll end up, but I gotta let God drive.


Kelly said...

It's not easy for me, either, K. Big hugs today. xo

Kevin J. Bowman said...

Once Upon A Tandem is written by Jay Payleitner a guy from St. Charles. It deals with this subject in a wonderfully encouraging way.