I discovered something about myself this past week. I have changed a lot in these past few months. I knew I had changed some, I knew I had some different ways of looking at things, but I didn't realize until I was sitting in a small group meeting listening to people's thoughts and beliefs just how far I had moved. That's scary. And disorienting. And it makes me a little lonely, a little sad, and wondering where I go from here. I don't like to be different. I don't like to be alone. I have spent my whole life trying to be who people want me to be so I will be accepted. I have worked really hard to change that. And now I'm afraid if they only knew what I was thinking I would be alone again......
On another track. I'm reading again, just trying to be more balanced in my selections. I read Girls in Pants: The Third Summer of the Sisterhood (Sisterhood of Traveling Pants), DaVinci Code and Girl Meets God (by Lauren Winner.) I'm currently reading God's Politics by Wallis and I just got The Gospel in a Pluralist Society by Newbigin as well as The Shaping of a Life : A Spiritual Landscape by Tickle, Confessions of a Beginning Theologian by Elouise Renich Fraser and Mudhouse Sabbath by Lauren Winner. Well, it was balanced in what I read, but not in my list of things to read I guess. I need to find another good fiction book to read as well I guess. Any suggestions?
2 comments:
I'm really enjoying "The Mermiad Chair", Sue Monk Kidd.
and I totally understand about seeing how far you are and what that means to everything around you.
Thanks Jewels :)
And I'm glad you're enjoying the Mermaid Chair. I want to read it too............
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