Monday, February 13, 2006

The stories of my life

The things God allows us to go through in our lives are interesting. Even more interesting is our reaction to those things. Still more interesting is what we learn about ourselves in the process. Surprising things. Especially when we compare it to a past similar situation; it becomes an amazing growth yardstick. Things that would have broken me in the past, while painful and unwanted merely seem to bend me more into the person God wants me to be. Bending, stretching, making perfect - never in the way I would choose; given a choice I would always choose the easy way -another chapter in my story. So now I'm through a trial, and out the other side, and ready to move on into the next learning adventure. Who knows what it will be, but I know God will give me the grace and mercy and serenity to deal with it if I let him. This last episode has been a huge lesson in trust and letting go of control. Of relaxing into him and letting him tell the story the way he wants to - ending and all. And just knowing that he can see the big picture, he knows how it all fits together, he is the master storyteller, is amazing and immensely comforting. You don't even have to cheat and read the end of the book first to know it will be all right when God's the storyteller!


Kelly said...

I only know a tiny bit of what you must have gone through; it must have been so hard, and yet so amazing, to stare the thought of death in the face; to stare it DOWN, actually. Not many people get that opportunity. I mean, who WANTS it?, yet when it comes, and we come out on the other side, we find we've grown in ways we never could have otherwise. I'm happy for you, Karen. You must feel like flying. xo

Matt Cav said...

im doing well, how've you been karen? good to hear from you again! im addicted to the same shows you are, plus the office (thursday) and american idol (my friend is on it this year).