Lightbulb!
Duh - how long did it take this to connect? This whole pomo thing is so resonate with me because I was always living in the margins. Even as early as grade school. Marginalized, left out, ignored. Forever I've been here. It is the home I know. I just don't always make the connection because to me it is not the margin, it is my home. Mainstream life? Never fit there. Never good at it. Couldn't relate. Couldn't play the game, much less win! Wow - now it all makes sense.