I am Not Supposed to be Here.....

While painting at Mike and Julie's the other day, Mike put Michael Card's Joy in the Journey CD on. For many years that has been one of my favorite CD's. I hadn't listened to it in awhile and in the listening I remembered just why I liked Michael Card so well. When I got home I dragged out all my Michael Card CD's and gave them a listen. One song struck me because of some things I have been experiencing in my life recently. Here are the lyrics:

It was His final word as we walked beside the sea
"You will be led where you don't want to go,"
I knew that he would test my faith and all that I believed
But just how far then I would never know

And He would send a vision then, once more beside the sea
To a rooftop where my ecstasy was seen
To ask what was unaskable, three times the vision came
And demanded I embrace what was unclean

You know I'm not supposed to be here
To cross the line no one has crossed before
To simply be one of the fools
That you've called to break the rules
And to go someplace I'm not supposed to be

My stumbling faith responded to what my mind said wasn't right
So I left that place and followed in a dream
To find unfamiliar strangers who were hungry for the Light
Then I realized that no one is unclean

But I was born to be a winner
And not to serve some fallen conquered king
Who took up the cross and bled
When he broke himself for bread
In a place where he was not supposed to be

And you know I'm not supposed to be here
And to go someplace I'm not supposed to be
To cross the line no one has crossed before
To simply be one of the fools
That you've called to break the rules
And to go someplace I'm not supposed to be