Wednesday, September 27, 2006

More about me......

More ways to fill a boring morning.....Thanks Char. :) Plus they made me smile.
And really, no substance - and that's how I feel today. So, enjoy!

You Are Pretty Logical

You're a bit of a wizard when it comes to logic
While you don't have perfect logic, you logic is pretty darn good
Keep at it - you've got a lot of natural talent in this area!

You Are 30% Left Brained, 70% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

It was a toss up between these next two....
Your Personality Profile

You are nurturing, kind, and lucky.
Like mother nature, you want to help everyone.
You are good at keeping secrets and tend to be secretive.

A seeker of harmony, you are a natural peacemaker.
You are good natured and people enjoy your company.
You put people at ease and make them feel at home with you.

Your Personality Profile

You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant.
Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.
You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.

For you, comfort and calm are very important.
You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.
You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.

You Are 32% Abnormal

You are at low risk for being a psychopath. It is unlikely that you have no soul.

You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess.

You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection.

You are at high risk for having a social phobia. It is very likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.

You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Growing pains

Tugs of independence. They make me sorta sad. Especially from the child who has always wanted to be with me, by my side - especially in unknown or uncomfortable situations. From the child who always asked me to go on field trips, class trips and chaperone parties, even as other kids would rather die than have their mom there. I always thought I would enjoy the day when I didn't have two more arms attached to me. And it's not that she suddenly doesn't want me there - no that's not the case. It's the little stirrings of "I've got it", "I know what I'm doing", "it's under control", "mom, chill." Subtle things here and there, but so quick to pierce the heart. It's the never knowing what the mood is that is disconcerting - one minute they want to be grown up, and the next, they want to lie on your shoulder. Hold your hand. Growing pains. Who knew they would be as hard on me as they are on her?

Interesting....thanks Mike :)

You've Changed 44% in 10 Years

You've done a good job changing with the times, but deep down, you're still the same person.
Your clothes, job, and friends may have changed some - but it hasn't changed you.

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

This was fun...

Thanks Wendy for the link.....

You Belong in Dublin

Friendly and down to earth, you want to enjoy Europe without snobbery or pretensions.
You're the perfect person to go wild on a pub crawl... or enjoy a quiet bike ride through the old part of town.

Your Linguistic Profile:

60% General American English
20% Upper Midwestern
10% Yankee
5% Midwestern
0% Dixie

Your Geek Profile:

Academic Geekiness: High
Internet Geekiness: Moderate
Fashion Geekiness: Low
Geekiness in Love: Low
SciFi Geekiness: Low
Gamer Geekiness: None
General Geekiness: None
Movie Geekiness: None
Music Geekiness: None

Monday, September 18, 2006

Just what the doctor ordered.....

What an absolutely gorgeous early fall day. Bright sun. Cool breeze. Feathery clouds. I love this time of year. I took the entire day off for a doctor’s appointment - and I am so glad I did! I went to Caribou with my book this morning and sat and read and enjoyed a Mint Condition. After I left there I felt complete freedom. I didn't have to hurry - there was no stress. I was calm, content, filled with joy and peace and happiness. Driving with the window down, the breeze in my hair and great tunes on the radio. This day stretches out expectantly before me with an endless array of possibilities! I can do whatever I want. No expectations. What a wonderful gift. If I had this opportunity every day would I still cherish it? Or take it for granted and waste it? Would it still be special? Joyful? Would I still take (and revel in) time alone with God? I'm so happy today. So totally, totally happy. Smiling. Joyful. Patient - I didn't even care when somebody cut me off in traffic. I just smiled and let them in. What a wonderful, wonderful gift today has been. I think I'll go for a walk..... :)

Sunday, September 10, 2006

You want me to do what?

This has been an interesting week. Or last couple of days anyway. It started Thursday night at the Vision Team meeting for our church. Mike is starting a Leadership Training class, and he asked who would like to do it. A couple of guys raised their hands, and that was it. I was sitting there thinking, I would so like to do this – but…… and a litany of excuses came to mind. So I didn’t raise my hand, but ignored the thought and went home. Later that evening it kept nagging at me, but I just kept dismissing it. I did send Mike an email though expressing interest, and of course my list of excuses. (I'm sure he probably thinks I'm crazy at times....) That was the end of it. Or so I thought. Last night, for some reason, I called up D, and asked her if she wanted to go to Willow Creek. I go there with her occasionally – it’s her church. And it was kind of weird that I instigated our attending. Bill Hybels spoke, and I have never heard him speak before. D was afraid I would be put off by his style, but since it was familiar to the “style” I was raised in, it was ok. His topic was about allowing God to rock our world. Now for those of you that know me, I have spent a year and a half or so being rocked so hard I’ve almost spun off into space. This past summer I withdrew from everything; I wasn’t working, I didn’t go on vacation, I didn’t do anything but lay around and watch DVD’s and read. It was like a healing thing though, just a time to be alone and rest and renew myself. I didn’t do anything stressful, or read anything challenging. As the school year started again I was calm, and stress free and ready to go. So, back to last night. Bill Hybels talked about a lot of things, but the thing that really, really got to me was “God chose you!” Me. He used examples of Saul/Paul and others to explain the point. What it boiled down to in my mind was, if God chose me, who am I to question Him? And the leadership training class came back to my mind. Wham. And still, I was arguing with myself. Then as he closed, after a lot of other very pertinent things that I won't share now, he suggested, that if we were willing, every day for the next month we should pray that God would rock our world. Seriously? Does he know what he's suggesting? Wow. I felt like God was talking directly to me.
After the service I spent a couple hours talking to D over coffee. We went over and over things that were my concerns, and fears regarding the Leadership stuff. Her perspective helped me realize some things about myself – and my talking it through helped show me what my fears were, and where they were coming from. So as I drove home last night, I just decided that if God wants me in this Leadership Training class, it’s something I need to do, end of story. I basically said, OK God - you win. And although it’s so far outside my comfort zone, I clearly feel his direction leading this way. But as for asking God to rock my world – I’m still not so sure I’m up for that again.
So, yes, that was interesting happening number one. The second thing occurred today in church. We were talking about prayer, and we had a good discussion, and learned some new things about prayer, and new ways to make prayer more meaningful. One of the ways we explored was through pictures. Mike passed out a pile of pictures and everyone took one. Just the top one off the pile as they went by. I took my picture, and passed the pile on, and then I looked at my picture and almost gasped out loud.
The picture was of either an African woman, or a Haitian woman and her child. She was emaciated, sitting on a chair, holding an equally hungry child. Their faces were turned toward the camera with huge, pleading eyes. And it broke my heart. First, I was convicted to pray that I would be content with less, so others could have more. Secondly, that God would break my heart where the needy and poor are concerned. Thirdly that I would learn to love people, all people, no matter who they are, and lastly, and the one that really hit me the hardest was – I want to go do something, I want to go to Haiti with people from my church to start making a difference in peoples lives. And I feel very strongly about that. I want to go. I have a passport, I have desire – I just want the chance to serve. All this from a small black and white picture of a mother and her child. It literally took my breath away, that God was so powerfully speaking to me right then. I need to get away by myself and think about this. I need to let God work here. I need to be silent and listen for the still small voice. I’m exhausted, and feel a bit battered. But in a good way. God is still working…..and He can (and actually wants to) use me.

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Fall TV Viewing....(aka I need to get a life....)

Hmmmmm - so many must sees and so little time. And we are down to one VCR. That works when it feels like it. Sigh.
Anyway - here goes: LOST, 24, Jericho, Veronica Mars, Greys Anatomy, House, Amazing Race, Survivor, and Gilmore Girls. Oh - and 7th Heaven - with my girls cuz we've watched it together forever. Cheezy, yes, but old habits die hard. Vanished could be promising and maybe Ugly Betty - could be kitschy enough. And possibly Friday Night Lights. So, forget parties, meetings, dinners out, movies, and school events. I'll be busy....... ;)